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Name: Loveless
Country: United States
State: California
Metro: Los Angeles
Gender: Female
Interests: Yaoi Fangirl. Anime. Manga. Doujinshi. Anime Merchandise. Terrifed of Yuri. Funky Dance Ska Music. Astronomy and Space. Ragnarok Online. Computers. Melancholy Hearts.
Expertise: To scare your little mind with disturbing thoughts ::crazed laughter:: To exceed beyond the regular weird ^-^
Occupation: Student
Industry: Engineering
Message: message me
AIM:  xNaNoDax
Member Since:
5/4/2003
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| It's winter... of 2009 ... already.
Within these past few years of non-updating entries, I've lost my first cell phone with Ein's baby photos, first mp3 player, favorite Keroppi umbrella, and countless other foolishly sentimental objects.
There were many things I accomplished and there were even more things I didn't accomplish.
I got my first job at Baxter as an intern in Technical Services. I ran my own experiments in the Cohn Box. I was just a work-o-holic monster clocking in at 6AM and clocking out at 8PM in order to complete my experimental runs. I receieved an offer from the company I wanted to work for, Procter and Gamble. I feel accomplished but not exactly satisfied.
The more I reflect on myself, the more I see similarities between me and Stein. I love to experiment, observe, and toy with people's emotions at their own expense just as much as he does. I admire knowledge and I definitely admire power (and no, knowledge is NOT power). We also share the fate of insanity and insecurity that only increases as time passes until we both lost all connections to reality. I like to piece things that do not even have a connection together and of course, I sew terribily. But, I think what ties us both together is our inability to really know what romantic love means. I completely understand the meaning of family love but what I can not comprehend is romantic love. Of course, everyone has their own definitions but I think it just doesnt exist. I feel lust coexists, or even amplifies love. Romantic Love will always arrive with impurifies and will never come in its purified form.
All of my fiery infatuations just worn out into dull emotions over a course of time. It could be that I don't trust what people say. It could be that I have so much pride in how I see the world, I can not accept another view. No matter what reason it is, I just don't believe in romantic love. Stein and I could have gotten along great if only he were alive, LOL. Unfortunately what does set Stein and I apart is that I do not fancy the idea of cutting people because I personally think that would leave too many stains to clean afterwards.
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I have been experiencing such strange weather. Florida sunny, Chicago winds, and now Seattle rain. Damn global warming. I should invent the super tree that reduces CO2 in the atmosphere.
Life's been good  Homework is minimal, i am starting to understand calculus more although i need to frequently review past lessons, and I am mostly content.
This year has been great so far ^^ I've met new people I have never
talked to before. Emily, Lovechild Wu, Padthai. All cool people B) This
year has been a change too. More lad back than usually because I
decided to take the classes I sure I could handle.
I still have yet to eliminate my procrastination problem. Life would be so much more easier if I did not finish things the day before the deadline, such as scholarships. I ran around school scooping up scholarships from my dear teachers.
One thing that I would turn back to go change is taking another class, either chemistry AP or computer science AP. Its hard to find a balance of what you can handle and what you can't. Last year I took the risk of taking apush, which is a bad move, sorry mr. chin xD. This year, I took classes I know i can handle and i am getting bored xD. :shrug:
So the college rush is over and I am relieved, at the most part. Good bye SATs and APs, it has been a long three years. Still, money is still a problem. I have about 1/3 left of my college tuition for my first year unpaid. I need to scramble some money :D
I am indifferent about which college to choose. I think it is because I think undergraduate degree education is mostly the same. Take the same classes and graduate. What matters is your master's degree if you want to pursue that far. But i guess i am a bit excited this one school accepted me ^^ i didnt expect it to due to test scores, LOL. :shrug: The Admission Gods are fickle 
Day at the Fair was at highlands today. Too bad it was raining and closed early. I couldnt even go. My sister won a cute fish. We bought it food and it just sleeps at the bottom of our pickle jar. Lazy fish :D It reminds me of myself. I question its lifespan ::worry:: I had fish before. They all died within 3 months because I didnt know i over stuffed the tank. The tank could only handle 3 while my dad let me choose to buy 9. Oh how ignorance hurts. I hope the fish has a better life than my former fish (plural by the way).
I also have been sucked into reality shows, a problem i never had before. Top Model intrigues me. So does the Next Pussy Cat Doll because my curious self wants to know who will be eliminated! Mwhaha! It is like social darwinism.
Now, I am left to ponder the chemistry of fruits. Why does when one puts tangerines in the refrigerator it turns more sour than tangerines left out? :shrug:
well ttyl, ta ta for now. hope it write in you soon ^^
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| what to do ... what to do with bad teachers.
 
i always wished i had the ability to self-teach myself only because i wouldnt have to be dependent on anyone else to learn material.
but without problems, life wouldnt be life, right?
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| sacremento LEAD was pretty fun and i learned a lot too. california became a state in 1850!
i never noticed how california was so desolate between los angeles area to sacremento. i guess living in such a busy city made me believe every city was just like this one. ::shrug:: i need to get out more.
going to sacremento made me appreciate monterey park more, even if i was in sacaramento for only 2 days.
even thought judy chu has done so much to make life better for immigrants, she has sacrificed too much of her life into politics. from monday to thurs, she is at the capital. from thurs to sunday, she is down here in monterey park in her district office. dont even mention all the ceremonies and meetings she has to attend! when monday comes around again, back to sacremento she goes! it is like living two lives. crazy! she reads ALLL the bills that comes to her which depletes her personal time and she decides whether bills will pass (well, the bills involving money. she passes or denies 200 bills with her committee every week!). even though judy chu has a lot of political power, is it the worth the sacrifice of her personal life? she doesnt talk to her husband and she doesnt even have any children. when does she get her own time?! would you sacrifice your life for the betterment for others? would you truly? it makes me wondering if judy chu wants to help herself (reputation) instead of the betterment of others. sorry. i was trailing off in the end xD
i like the sales tax in sacremento. 7.75 %. this is why i got sunglasses xD
i never knew some macy's divide men and furniture in one shop and women's in another. i dont know whether to be thankful or offended. are they saying there are more women's clothes styles or are they saying that women clothes takes up as much space as men AND furniture?!
you would think that sacramento is busier than la since it is california's state capital. not really. kind of laid back from what i see.
::sigh:: the thought of networking makes me depressed in the motives in human relationships. i know it is helpful in the career world but it just sounds so artificial NOT to like them as a person and to use them. or maybe i shouldnt even see networking like that. maybe i should just befriend the world and see what happens. nah, that would be keeping my guard down too low. oh the conflict.
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6 flags was fun too, except for the sore feet and squahsed caramel apple. dive devil did look fun, but i knew i would get motion sickness after. Tatsu was REALLLY REALLLY COOL *_____* I <3 TATSU'S PREZTEL TURN O_____O ;; amazing! darn you 6 flags! how you simplify cultures! Tatsu is japanese while the whole ride was chinese-themed!? how dare you mix the two up O__O?! i am not saying the japanese or chinese are better, i just wished they knew the difference because the two cultures have differentiated themselves for such a long time. the language, the traditions, and esp the food. clashing them together is just an insult the two cultures are the same =/
i think the best part of the trip was the time we were all aching together x3
andy and his "map and directions" xD
kevin's "80%" O_O?
i am still debating whether the extra 20 dollars was worth it to cut in line only 4 times =/ thanks for a wonderful time guys :D i saw vivian there too. i wished she came to keppel instead of alhambra.
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on the search for a laptop.
and wanting to go to OK GO's concert in hollywood aug 29 tuesday. hawt.
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sorry johny, i didnt go to the SAVE bowl >__<
johny should wake up earlier before he miss another trip >:D
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college is frightening. thank you jen and wendy xD i got some good info but i am still scared O_O
i'm not going to college! gahhh!!!! *___* sometimes i just want to lay back and learn more about art and symbols. sometimes i want to save the world with aerospace! sometimes i want to find ways to make solar panels 75% efficient. my cousin pris has also been telling me the nursing job aint too bad. oh no, not the "change the bed pan" nurses. HIGH DEGREE NURSES. we are in the shortage of nurses. ah, all these futures buzzing aruond my head. sometimes, i just want to do EVERYTHING :D
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i think i finally found my inspiration for senior year so i wont get senioritis like i did my junior year. ::shrug:: it is going to be a tough year and i think i am ready, only if i dont waste my time on games and stuff.
here it goes again.
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::sigh:: on top of everything, all the seniors are starting to go their many directions =/
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August 1 Tuesday
Last Comic Standing
1pm - 4pm
@Pasadena Civic Center
August 4, Friday
Happy Hour
5:30 check in
7 - 10:30 PM watch
RESERVED 15 PEOPLE ALREADY
$10 per person
August 5, Saturday
Family Fued
11 am – 3 pm
3 pm – 7 pm
@ Los Angeles
$10 dollars per person
August 6, Sunday
Family Fued
11 am – 3 pm
3 pm – 7 pm
@ Los Angeles
$10 dollars per person
August 8th
Tuesday
Last Comic Standing
1pm - 4pm
@Pasadena Civic Center
August 9th
Wednesday
Last Comic Standing
1pm - 4pm
@Pasadena Civic Center
August 15, Tuesday
Reba
4:30 check in
6:00 - 9:30 watch
$10 per person
August 17, Thursday
All of Us
3:30 check in
5:00 - 9:00
$10 per person
RESERVED 15 PEOPLE ALREADY
August 18, Friday
The World Home
times unknown now.
$10 per person
August 19, Saturday
Family Fued
11 am – 3 pm
3 pm – 7 pm
@ Los Angeles
$10 dollars per person
August 20, Sunday
Family Fued
11 am – 3 pm
3 pm – 7 pm
@ Los Angeles
$10 dollars per person
August 26, Saturday
Family Fued
11 am – 3 pm
3 pm – 7 pm
@ Los Angeles
$10 dollars per person
August 27, Sunday
Family Fued
11 am – 3 pm
3 pm – 7 pm
@ Los Angeles
$10 dollars per person
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